Username: ShellKnight
Ban reason: Indef Ban for Revolting against Sec, Self-antag, Escalation, Being a dick - Attempted to steal SSD Captain's Gear, resisting arrest over issue, worked with syndies to revolt against security.
Length of ban: Indefinite
Ban Issue:
The ban is fair, but I would like a second chance or reduction
Vote Opt-Out: false
Events leading to the ban
Leading to the ban, I had a bad game (and day) beforehand, and was playing off anger purely.
I started the round by running around doing whatever, (looting maints, looking for roleplay opportunities, etc.) and I spot an SSD captain being dragged. Looking for something funny to do, I collaborated with some other tiders to drag the captain into chapel (unaware of their plans, thinking this was a funny haha moment) and promptly got arrested. Not acknowledging my arrest reason, I ran away from security.
Upon escaping from security, im now super tilted and angry (without a good reason, just angry and upset from previous games and life in general) and started to be an absolute dick to security.
Some of these actions include unwrenching the substation that connects to security, thus getting rid of power for the whole department, then stealing a bunch of weapons from armory along with clown and mime and promptly stashing them. After this, having the entire security arsenal, I stunned and cuffed the secoff that arrested me, and one that was attempting to arrest clown. At this point, admin intervention happened and I got permbanned.
Theres no real motive towards these actions other than my pure anger and entitlement. I could have been the bigger person and enjoyed myself. I realize this, and I apologize for this. I do acknowledge that I ruined the round for other players and didn’t even make my own better. It was extremely self centered of me and I know that, and want to make amends.
Previous factors leaning into my actions this game were being metagamed out as thief a day before from one of the same secoffs that I stunned, and just generally being upset and angry and channeling that anger into my gameplay. More events leading into this was more personal problems that are irrelevant and uncomfortable to share.
Reason the ban should be removed
I took some time to think about this, which is why I waited a prolonged time before appealing. After this ban, I took some time to think and connect with myself. I reformed my anger and have genuinely made strides towards being nicer towards other people and working on anger management.
Space station is a game I love, people in its community are genuinely super nice and I wish I could be a part of that again. I fully acknowledge what I did as wrong and unfair to other players.
I’ve gotten previously temp-banned for revolting against security aswell. I’ve realized that they were just doing their IC jobs, and I was being an OOC prick and taking everything out of roleplay and metagrudging them. I acknowledge what I did as wrong and I acknowledge that I was an absolute prick for doing so.
I’m not gonna try and deflect the blame for what I did. I know it was stupid and impulsive of me. I should have opted to log out and SSD instead of continuing to be an asshole.
Instead of escalating the situation leading to a permban and tempbans for multiple people, I should have stopped the chain and made a stride to be better. (Which I aim to do in the future)
Reading through this looks like a massive confession, but I think the ban should be removed (or probated) because I genuinely feel I’ve changed. Things in real life hadn’t been going well, and I took my time away from playing to solve some of those issues. Im a genuinely happier person than I was previously to my ban. (I know how corny this sounds, but its true.)